BUY ONE GET ONE FREE.

Monday morning at 6:15 am alarm clock  starts beeping,  awww! you horrible thing shut up! all I wanted  to do was cover my head with the blankets and keep sleeping. I am usually always ready for Mondays but not yesterday.

I got out of bed with a horrible headache, my throat hurt actually everything hurt even my nails. There is nothing that I hate more than being sick, I don't  take any  medicine so I relay on vitamin C, and lots, lots of teas and soups sometimes my recovery takes a little longer but I rather suffer a little more than putting all the crap in my body.

I took Bella to school and on the way back home I made a list on my mind of things that I was going to do to make me feel better it look something like these:

• Drink lots of tea.
• Make a veggie soup, maybe my favorite southwest bean soup yum!!
• Grab a couple blankets and make the sofa comfortable.
• Start reading my new Frida Kahlo book.
• SLEEP, SLEEP AND SLEEP.
• Don't forget to drink lots of water.
• Call my mom, she always makes me feel better.

Then I got home, look at the back of my car and there they were, a couple of monsters full of energy, and then I remember oh shut! they are my kids, the list I made in my mind was dumb, there was no possible way I was going to be able to read or sleep, because I happen to have kids and a very fat dog,  which was already waiting at the door for me to feed her. Instead of tea I made myself a second cup of coffee to be able to keep up with them, I made the kids breakfast, well that's actually a lie because I just handle each one a bowl of cereal.

After they were done, I ask them if they wanted to watch a movie of course they say yes (this was my opportunity for the hot cup of tea and to park it on my sofa) to my surprise they didn't care for the movie, they keep fighting about the smallest stuff, it was war between the two of them. I scream a few times, that only made my throat hurt even more but didn't fix the problem between them.

For a moment there I found myself shouting at Luca "I'm going to sell you on Craigslist" on my mind I could see the add, the tittle will be  "BUY ONE GET ONE FREE"  and It would say something like these: cute, little twins for sale, they are driving me crazy and I can't do it anymore. If you pay for one you can have the other for free. call or email if interested.

I got a giggle out of my imaginary add and then I felt bad for even thinking that, but I didn't meant that or did I?? I mean my life would absolutely suck without them. 

I ask myself WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU WOMAN? why are you screaming? why are you trying to sell your kids? I freaked out and called my mom, she offer right away to bring us real food and she told me that I wasn't a horrible mom that I was just sick and maybe a little tired. Oh the woman, I tell you she is my SUPERHERO! my everything!!

After I ate, I email Amner and I told him that I was miserable and that I wish he was home with me, to my surprise he left work and he came home to me, I felt really bad at first because he left work and here he was taking care of the kids and now me. He made me soup and kiss my forehead alot but I couldn't help to I feel weak and lazy, I was mad at myself for making him come home, what kind of mom am I? 

I have a problem with  asking for help, I don't like it, I never have. I don't think I am super mom NOT AT ALL! but I do try every single day to be the best mom, wife, friend, sister and daughter.

I sometimes drive myself crazy, with cleaning the house, laundry, making dinner, work, bathing the kids, putting them down for naps, reading stories, taking Frida out, I hope you are aware that I am just venting right now ;) yeah, it may be a lot sometimes but I bid there is other mom's that do even more than me, so why am I even complaining right? I don't know why I'm  complaining, I actually love it, I love making dinner every night so we can enjoy it together, I like cleaning the house, I like it when smells pretty and it looks pretty, everything about my life is pretty darn awesome right now but I must tell you that all the spoiling by my mom and man yesterday felt so good, I could definitely get used to it.

I feel a lot better than yesterday now, and I am about to go read some books with my "NOT FOR SALE" kids.

Wishing you all a happy healthy week!!

XO

LAU.