02/20/14

There is nothing better, than a rainy morning. I find them relaxing and even romantic.

They remind me of the first time Amner and I kiss under the rain, it was during a horrible storm we were at a friend’s gathering in a ranch outside of town out of nowhere he pulled me outside, we run and run until we found the perfect place far away from everything and everybody. Our clothes was soaking wet but there in the middle of nothing with just the moon as our light and surrounded by trees he took me in his arms and he kissed me in a a way that I am never going to forget.

We spend the week after, in pajamas making teas, soups and taking care of each other's cold, I don’t recall ever having a worst cold than that one but it was totally worth it.

I found myself writing this in the morning of February twentieth, while I was drinking my coffee and the kids were in front of me sharing the last blueberry muffin, I wrote it in an old diary in Spanish so if you have a hard time reading this post today it’s because I kind of suck translating stuff plus my English has never been perfect, well going back to the conversation I also found myself thinking if I tell Amner that I love him enough? Or if he realizes that after six years I love him more now than the eighteen year old me back we started dating?

So, I haven’t ask him yet and I am not sure that I want to instead I want to tell him right now.

Amner, I know that at this exact moment you are in your office and I know that you would be reading this post before you get home, so I just want to tell you that TE AMO mi amor, I love you more than my own being, today more than ever and in a couple years I would love you a lot more. You have been the perfect copilot in all my crazy adventures; you are the only person that can make me dream far beyond than what I thought it was possible. And if that wasn’t enough you brought Bella into my life when I need it her the most and years later you gave me my wild ones, our Luca and Azul and we became a real family. I’m not sure if you remember but one day I told you (I’m sure it was on a MySpace message) that I didn’t wanted to be with you when you were at the top of the mountain that I wanted to climb to the top with you, I know that we probably are not even in the half of the mountain but I want you to know that so far it’s been the best trip ever.

Let’s keep climbing mi amor!

This take me to another topic, I know that I started “The 52 project" at the beginning of this year, you know taking a picture of my husband every week for 52 weeks I was very excited about it at the beginning because I don’t really take pictures of my husband, he takes pictures of me all the time but I don’t know why I am so bad at taking pictures of him. I was on my third week of the challenge when I realized that I was just following a trend and if you knew me you would know that I don’t do trends, seriously my kids don’t wear mini rodini, our house is not full of ikea furniture actually we don’t own NADA from Ikea.

Don’t get me wrong some of the clothes from many kids designers is extremely beautiful, being a designer myself I have extremely respect and admiration for all of them including of course mini rodini (I’m going to get so much hate mail for this) but the fact that every kid all over social media is wearing the same top makes me sick of my stomach, well enough of that.

Going back to “The 52 project” when I was taking the pictures of my husband, my pictures didn’t feel right. I want to show my husband the way I see him not the way social media is telling me to see him, at the end social media doesn’t tell me every morning that I look like a goddess and that I am the most beautiful woman he has ever seen.

I am sorry that it took me so long to get back in the blog but life has been crazy busy since we move but we should be getting back in track this week, also I want to apologize in advanced if my words in this post hurt anybody, I am not trying to do it in purpose but this is my tiny space and I want to stay true to myself so I am not going to put filters on what I believe in.

Have a great Tuesday!!

Laura.